Weekend!!

Hurray, it's the weekend!  I was really looking forward to sleeping in, but it's 7:00ish on a Saturday morning.  I am up because I heard this terrible crash that woke me up.  It sounded almost like someone had broken through our front room window and landed with a thud in our living room. 

I asked Arthur if he heard it, and of course he didn't.  He will probably sleep through the end of the world.  I was really scared and didn't want to come out of our room.  I listened for any follow-up noises like walking around, or glass crunching.   There was nothing but little cat bells.

I cautiously came out of our room and peered around the corner into the living room.  The cats had knocked over the big palm tree plant.  Arthur spent all day yesterday taking down the Christmas decorations, which included putting our big palm tree in front of the window again. 

I'm sure the cats weren't used to it, so they were probably trying to climb it.  It sits on a wiggly 3-legged stand. 

I tried to come back to bed to go back to sleep, but I kept worrying about water going all over the floor (if he'd recently watered it or something).  I came out and stood the plant up and now there's no way I can sleep.  :(

So, I'm up blogging.  I may get some hot chocolate and try to go rest a little in a bit, and maybe read.  I do love the morning when it's quiet and I can just do what I want.  I wonder if it will stay like that when I have kids. 

How far along:  13 Weeks, 2 Days
How much time left:  26 Weeks, 5 days
 
Top two symptoms:  Yesterday I didn't deal too much with difficult symptoms.  It was the typical headache throughout the day, and then nausea at night.  I think the nausea seems to get bad just as I'm starting to get ready for bed.   Not sure why.  I had to eat a banana, a half of a pack of saltines and eat a Preggie Pop Drop.  If you haven't heard of them, they're all natural and they're supposed to help with nausea.  They are sour, so I think something with the extra saliva production makes you not be as nauseated.  I'm not sure, but they work pretty good.  https://www.threelollies.com/

Favorite thing I ate today:  Yesterday, I had Subway.  It was so delicious.  I haven't eaten much today, so maybe I'll blog with that info later.  :)

Mood:  My mood yesterday was ok.  At work I was a bit frazzled because I had to get a bunch of stuff done for next week.  I did have a happy moment, my boss found out she's having a boy.  I was excited for her because she wants a boy.   The other highlight of my day was coming home and seeing Arthur.  He always cheers me up after I've had to work all day.  He even traded me nights and made me dinner.  Best husband ever.

Worried about:  Even though I'm extremely excited for my 14 week doctor's appointment next week, I'm nervous too.  What if something isn't normal?  Have I done everything I can to make sure I have a healthy baby?  I know that most of this stuff is out of my control, but I still worry about it. 

Excited for:  On the other side, I'm also very excited.  It would be cool if the doctor could tell me the sex of the baby.  I know 14 weeks is probably too early, but I can still hope, right?  I really, REALLY want to go get Fetal Fotos to do an ultrasound at 15 weeks because they can see the sex of the baby then.  They even guarantee that they will be able to tell you what it is from then.  Even if the baby is being "shy" I hear they give you a gift certificate to come back and try again.  I just want to know!!!  :)

Long Time No Blog!

So sorry for the delay.  I haven't felt like blogging until today this week.  I kept thinking about doing it and every time I did, I got a little bit of anxiety because of how long I've waited to blog.

But, I must forgive and forget, and move on.  Here I am, and here are the updates.

I promised a picture of my new haircut that I got on Saturday.  I have bangs and darker hair:

I also promised a picture of all of the baby stuff I got for Christmas.  I took a picture of all of it, including a few of the things I've collected on my own:

 On Monday of this week I worked from home.  I had a pretty relaxing day getting a few things done for the end of the year.  That night, Arthur and I went to see The Hobbit.  It was pretty good.  I kept waiting for them to meet up with the dragon and Arthur told me that it won't happen until at least the 3rd movie in the series.  Hmm.

After the movie, we went back home.  We watched the ball drop for the new year.  It wasn't very exciting, but it was very nice to not be stressed with going out and doing a bunch of stuff.

The next day we slept in until about 9:30.  I met up with my sister and her family to go to Build a Bear.  It was Adam's birthday present back in November to get a Build a Bear and an outfit.

We met up at the Gateway and ate at the food court for lunch.  Then we went to Build a Bear.  Adam picked a little dog and named him Ruff Ruff.  We got him an NBA outfit and a football outfit.  We dressed him in the NBA outfit:

After Build a Bear, we met up with Jackson and Whit and Leo at the Aquarium.  Jackson loved looking at the fish.  He is so cute, he babbles and talks non-stop.  He also let me hold him a few times, which was awesome.  It was nice to spend time with both my nephews and my niece on my day off.

I had to go back to work on Wednesday, and I've just been getting back into the groove of things.  Mostly, I'm just focusing on getting past these next week or so until I can get back to the doctor and see how my baby is doing.  I'm trying really hard to avoid nausea by eating well and sleeping as much as I can at night.  I still feel pregnant which tells me all is still ok.  :)

How far along:  13 Weeks TODAY!
How much time left:  27 Weeks

Top two symptoms:  Today it was nausea and body aches.  I have been coming home and taking a bath to help with the painful "growing pains".  They are mostly in my upper legs and lower torso.  I read that it's pretty normal for this part of the pregnancy.  Normal doesn't mean that I appreciate it, though.  :)  I tried to keep eating as much as I could today to help with the nausea.  I did a pretty good job. 

Favorite thing I ate today:  I went to Zupa's with my friends from work and I had the mushroom soup with orzo pasta.  It was de-lic-ious.  :)

Mood:  My mood at work was good, I felt like I was able to get everything done today and stay focused.  It got a bit worse after work, which is when I started to go downhill and feel a bit worse. 

Worried about:  My headaches are still there during the day, and I worry about the pain that I'm feeling in my legs and lower torso.  I know it's normal, but it still worries me sometimes.  

Excited for:  I'm looking forward to getting together with my sister, dad and Brielle to celebrate their birthdays.  It's always fun to spend time with my family.  :)

Last Friday of the Year!

Happy Friday! 

Today was a chill day.  I worked from home all day, getting things wrapped up for the end of the year.  I'm working from home on Monday as well, and then I have Tuesday off for New Year's Day.  I am really grateful for the opportunity I have to work from home.  It's nice to be able to wake up and go to work still in my pajamas.

Early this morning, Arthur's fish came in the mail.  He purchased them on Wednesday and they overnighted them yesterday to arrive today.  He was really excited to put them in his tank.  That was most of his big present from me, fish.  He got a gift card to SaltwaterFish.com and some money to buy fish at the fish store.  He seemed to really like that.  :)

Arthur's family is coming over tonight to play some games.  We spent a few hours this afternoon cleaning up the house since it was still messy from Christmas.  I was really struggling with nausea and a headache, but I was able to get at least one load of dishes in and I was able to clean the bathroom.  After that, I took a shower and had a nap.  Even the smallest tasks take everything out of me. 

I'm excited that the house is clean for the weekend, though.  That means that Arthur and I can spend some time together.  We've been really separated this past week since I've been so sick and needed to sleep a lot.  I don't think we've done something fun outside of the house since a few weeks before Christmas.  I haven't even felt like leaving the house since before Christmas either.  I'm really looking forward to feeling more normal.

How far along:  12 Weeks, 1 Day
How much time left:  27 Weeks, 6 days

Top two symptoms:  Nausea and Exhaustion.  A headache too.  My nausea didn't get bad until this evening.  It seems to get bad now whenever I exert any physical energy.  Going up and down the stairs, bending over, showering... all of that stuff makes my nausea go crazy.  Loading the dishwasher this afternoon prompted my only throw up for the day.  At least my stomach was empty.  :)

Favorite thing I ate today:  I didn't find much pleasure in food today.  I think the best thing I ate was hashbrowns that Arthur made for breakfast.  They were really good.

Mood:  Today, I felt pretty normal until I had to start getting up and getting moving.  The dishwasher made me feel like I was dying.  Mostly because of the back and forth, up and down motions, combined with the smells.  My mood went downhill at that point.

Worried about:  The thought of making myself presentable to go outside and interact with the general public.  Being around anyone but Arthur and my immediate family makes me feel really scared.  I'm not very pleasant, and I'm mostly grumpy.  I don't want to be short with someone who is trying to be nice to me.  I worry about that now that my emotions seem to be out of control.

Excited for:  Starting to feel normal, eventually. 

The Days After Christmas

Today is Thursday!  I think I'm averaging about a blog a week now.  I really struggle to get the energy even just to sit here and get out my thoughts about how I'm feeling and what I'm up to.

Christmas was wonderful, and busy.  It all started Christmas Eve.  We went to Arthur's mom's house to get a gift for a secret santa.  Arthur's mom had gathered some presents for someone she works with so they could have a somewhat decent Christmas.  I helped with delivering it.  They didn't open the door, but it felt good to be able to help out make someone's Christmas brighter.  :)

After that, Arthur and I went to his Grandma's house.  We had a few snacks and exchanged gifts with his grandparents.  We were there for about an hour.  After that, we went up to my parent's house for the Christmas Eve party.  Everyone was there but Whit, Leo and Jackson.  Jackson and Leo have been sick so they didn't make it up.  :(  I know how it feels to be sick, though.  Ugh!

We hung out for a little while and had dessert with my family.  We packed up and headed back to Arthur's mom's house about 9:00.  We got there and got our pajamas and slippers.  Arthur's mom always gets everyone a new pair of pajamas to wear.  It's a fun tradition, and I think I'd like to continue it with my own kids someday.

I was really tired and didn't feel very well, so I went to bed pretty early while Arthur wrapped a few more things for his mom.  In the night, I was coughing so much I couldn't really sleep.  I woke up probably 10+ times coughing.  I finally gave up around 4 and just lay there hoping that time would fly by until it was time to wake up and do Christmas.  I took some cough drops and got up a few times to blow my nose.  That helped pass the time.  :)

Around 8:00, the kids (Arthur's nieces and nephew) all got up and woke everyone up.  We went out and opened presents.  I was pretty much a zombie, but I still had fun opening presents.

I took a nap after presents and was able to wake up a little to go to my family's house.  We left around 12:30 and go to my mom's around 1:00 PM.  We were the first ones there.  Adrienne and then Leo arrived.  Mike was already there.  We did gifts by family and it was fun to see everyone open up their presents.

We hung out for a little while, and left around 4:30 to get to his mom's house for Christmas dinner.  She made turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, and all of that delicious stuff.

We exchanged gifts with Aunt Joan and it was fun to see her reaction at getting a cell phone.  :)

After that, Arthur and I came home and did our gift exchange.  It was an exhausting but fun day.

I got a lot of really great stuff, and even some baby stuff.  I try and post a picture of all of it together since there is more than I can handle with individual pictures.  :)

I did get a really great gliding rocking chair that I can use someday in my nursery.  That will be great!

The past two days, I've been working on recovering completely from my cold and also remembering what it feels like to be pregnant.  My nausea has returned full swing.  My exhaustion is also back with an amazing backache.  I have 2 muscles in my back that feel like they're attached to a giant fish hook and someone is always pulling on them as I move.  The only thing that feels good is to sit on a heating pad or to lie down flat on my back.  I don't really have a lot of energy to do anything.  Eating is about all I can do, and so any energy I have, I spend it finding or making food.

Today I worked from home.  My nausea was over the top.  I threw up twice, which for me is not normal.  I hoped that my nausea would magically disappear beginning week 12, but it hasn't yet.  :(  My cold is slowly clearing up.  I'm still coughing a bit and my congestion comes and goes.  I need to be better by the weekend so I can be somewhat productive with chores and stuff.

How far along:  12 Weeks TODAY!!
How much time left:  28 Weeks 

Top two symptoms:  Nausea bad enough for barfing and backache bad enough for sitting around all day.  Again. 

Favorite thing I ate today:  I made cream of mushroom soup and rice.  It's a comfort food from my childhood.  It's the only thing that sounded halfway decent that wasn't really hard to make. 

Mood:  My mood is depressed.  I feel very much like a waste of space.  I think that others may believe that I have a choice about how positively I'm thinking, and how much I do in a day, but unfortunately, my body makes almost every choice for me these days.  For example, this morning I tried eating peaches and mandarin oranges.  I did fine with the mandarin oranges, but when I started eating the peaches, I threw them right back up.  It was awful.  I got it in my hair and the throwing up caused another muscle in my back to pop out.  I just want to feel like a normal person again.  

Worried about:  My wonderful husband getting tired of doing EVERYTHING for me.  He did pretty much everything for me before I was pregnant, but that was because he is just a generous, hardworking guy.  Now, I feel like I can't even choose to get up and do what I want.  I want to bake a cake.  I can't even stand the thought of paying attention to something for that long.  So I can't bake a cake.  My husband is so patient.  I hope he doesn't get annoyed and decide I'm not worth it anymore.  :(

Excited for:  My next doctor's appointment, which is a week from  next Friday.  Ultrasound.  Ultrasound.  Ultrasound.  Light at the end of this dark and dreary tunnel.

Now, don't assume that I hate everything about pregnancy and I'm angry with the world for putting me in this situation.  I am still extremely happy that I am pregnant and I still wouldn't change my situation for anything else in the world.  I know there are those out there that would die to be pregnant.  I remember that all day long.  I struggle to feel positive, though... and even if my mind says 'I'm going to be happy!', my body responds with barfing, or a sharp stab to my back, or a headache that feels like I've been smacked with a mallet.  I knew it would be hard.  I know it will be worth it.  I'm just hoping to get out of this swamp soon so I can start to see the positive somewhere in all of this. 

Whoops! Sorry I'm late...

I don't think I've meant to not blog these past 3 days... I think I just haven't felt very well and logging in to type how I'm feeling just hasn't sounded very fun.

My last post was on Sunday, and I was really struggling that day.  Since then, I've appreciated coming back to work and focusing on something other than being pregnant.

As of yesterday, I've started dealing with nausea at night that is so severe that I'm starting to throw up.  I went to Panda Express last night with Arthur and his little sister to celebrate her birthday.  When I got home, I was so nauseous that I threw up.  It was bad news bears.

I took a bath after to try to calm down and feel better, but going to sleep is really the only thing that helped me feel normal.  I am feeling slightly out of it this morning.

The good news is all of this, I'm not too tired today and I'm looking forward to this weekend because we are going to California!  We planned this vacation before I knew I was pregnant, and so I'll just have to be careful with not riding most rides.  We are going to Vegas on Sunday night, the driving to Disneyland on Monday.  We'll stay 4 nights in Anaheim and during those days we'll go either down to San Diego to Sea World, Universal Studios or to Disney.  We'll stay Friday night in Vegas at the Luxor, and then come back on Saturday so we can spend Sunday getting ready for a new week.

I'm looking forward to the time off most of all.  :)

In other news, my mom brought me a "care package" at work yesterday because I was so sick the night before.  I called her crying on Tuesday night because I was so sick.  She brought me some Andes mints, some caffeine free Diet Coke, some protein shakes and some mint tea.  She also brought me a couple of baby toys, the first ones we've received.  It was so nice of her.

Arthur and I also had fun last night with his little sister to celebrate her birthday.  We went to a place called "Color Me Mine" and we painted pottery with glaze.  It was really fun.  I will post pictures once they are ready to be picked up.  :)

How far along:  8 weeks TODAY!
How much time left:  32 weeks
Top two symptoms:  Nausea and bloating

Favorite thing I ate today:  So far, I haven't had much to eat.  I'm looking forward to eating something for lunch.  Not sure what I'm going to have, but I'm feeling like a TeriYaki Grill salad.  Yum...

Mood:  A little hopeless and frustrated with my body.  I know that it's a good thing that I'm feeling so gross, because it means that my baby is growing.  I struggle to feel positive and excited when I feel like dying inside.  I'm sure that focusing on something else, like vacation will help me get my mind off of everything.  :)

Worried about:  Being sick while on vacation.  I'm going to try to pack lots of snacks so I don't get an empty stomach and make sure I have plenty of time to sleep when possible. 

Excited for:  Pirates of the Caribbean!  Also, Disneyland food!  And, buying baby stuff from Disneyland!!  Wooo!

Relaxaturday

Today has been a very, very lazy day.  I haven't accomplished anything but playing games and watching TV.  It's been nice to have a day to do nothing.  :)

I woke up this morning for the first time at 4:30 after going to bed around 1:00 AM.  That was for my first pee of the day.  I was able to go back to sleep in my own bed until about 7 for my second pee.  Then I couldn't sleep in my bed any longer and had to eat something.  I made some toast and some yogurt.  I ate them and took my vitamins.  I was still so exhausted, so I went downstairs and went back to sleep on the couch.  I slept until about 9:30.  Then I woke up and peed and went back to sleep until almost 1.  I finally felt like I'd had enough sleep.

That's a rough part of this time in the pregnancy.  I can't just sleep through the night and get a solid 8 or 10 hours.  It comes in bouts with interruptions of needing to empty my bladder.  :\

Arthur and I had some lunch together and we watched Survivor and a few other shows.  I decided I needed to take a bath, because my body was hurting everywhere.  So I did that, and then sent a few Facebook messages to extended family letting them know I was pregnant.

I know that because our immediate families know, the news was going to spread like wildfire.  So, trying to catch those that should know directly from me, I sent them messages letting them know.

It felt good getting a few replies already, and I think they appreciated being told personally.

Tonight, I'm not feeling so hot, so Arthur and I are going to skip Ka'Lea's baptism.  I feel bad, but I also know that pushing myself to get up and out won't make me very happy.  I appreciate that Arthur is ok with staying in tonight.  :)

We're having leftovers from Thanksgiving tonight, which I'm way excited about.  Then we're going to go get a mint chocolate chip shake, my craving of the day.  I actually started craving it last night, but it's not gone away and so I need to eat it soon. 

How far along:  7 weeks, 2 days
How much time left:  32 weeks, 5 days
Top two symptoms:  Headache and body aches.  Today I also felt very out of it.  Blahhhh.

Favorite thing I ate today:  White toast on Grandma Sycamore's bread with strawberry jam.  So good.

Mood:  Because I felt gross, I've been pretty disconnected and frustrated today.  I hope I feel better tomorrow because I have to do my chores and stuff.  Gross. Gross. Gross.  

Worried about:  I still worry about keeping my pregnancy healthy so I don't miscarry.  I know that every day I progress, that I'm getting closer to when I'm in the "safer zone".  The second trimester means that my chances of miscarrying are lowered significantly.  I'm looking forward to that time, for sure. 

Excited for:  Something totally random!  I told my cousin Andrea, who is married to my cousin Justan that I'm pregnant.  She offered to knit me a newborn hat!  I was so happy to hear she wanted to do that!  I will have to think of a cute idea to have her knit.  I think I'll wait to find out the gender first.  :)

Wednesday "Friday"

Three day work week!  Since Thanksgiving is tomorrow, and I get the day after off, it's a short work week.  I worked from home this morning and this afternoon I'm going to help Arthur go shopping for food for tomorrow's Thanksgiving dinner since we're having it at our house.  I'm really excited for the food! 

I didn't get a chance to blog yesterday.  It was a pretty normal day, nothing out of the ordinary.  The good news was that my headache didn't bug me at all during the day, probably because I was able to eat some chocolate and keep it under control.  I still didn't take the medication that was prescribed to me, since I really haven't needed it.  I'm pretty proud of myself for powering through it and keeping my mind focused on the positive.

I found out this morning that I didn't get the job.  I am ok with it, because I was really stressed about how I would have balanced maternity leave with this really stressful position.  I feel like my preparation was not like I would have liked it to be, and I think my stress may have shown through.  It's ok.  I'm going to focus on the positive side, that I didn't have to make a decision and that I can look forward to other opportunities that come up in the next few months.  I can also stop stressing about how I would work a new job against my upcoming December schedule.  It would have been crazy!  I really do like what I do and I'm sad that I feel like I have to look for something different.  But unfortunately, I do.

How far along:  6 Weeks, 6 days - 7 weeks tomorrow!!
How much time left:  33 weeks, 1 day
Top two symptoms:  Terrible, horrible, no good bloating and nausea.  It's dumb that as soon as my headache went away that the bloating dropped in.  Ugh!!!

Favorite thing I ate today:  A tomato!  With salt!  It was so good!

Mood:  Normal.  A little annoyed at my bloating and a little frustrated that I didn't get the job, but overall - I'm ok. 

Worried about:  Getting my announcement stuff ready before tomorrow and Friday to let my family and Arthur's family know I'm pregnant.

Excited for:  Arthur's mom is coming over tonight and I'm excited to make pies with them.  I love to eat pie, I'm just not sure how much I will love making them!  I'm sure it will be a blast.  :) 

UnFunMonday

Happy Monday!  Today was really long.  I had a fairly relaxing weekend, and to have to get up and go back to work... it was tough.  I got to work around 8:00 and had a few meetings in the morning.  Around 9:30 or so, my head pressure issue was getting worse already for the day.  I chatted with my friend who suggested I just call my OB/GYN to see if I should be worried. 

When I called, the nurse said that it wasn't normal, and that I should be checked for high blood pressure.  She asked if I could come in today.  I told her I could take a long lunch, and that I could be there by 11.  She was able to get me in, no problem. 

I left work around 10:15 to get there by 11.  When I checked in, they told me to pee in a cup.  I guess they wanted to see if I really was pregnant.  After I did that, the nurse came in and said that I was pregnant.  It made me laugh, because obviously I know.  :)

She took my weight, I've gained about 10 pounds since I found out I was pregnant.  I think the weight gain is normal.  She said I shouldn't worry too much about it in the first trimester.

She also took my blood pressure and told me I was on the lower range of normal.  It felt good to hear that, knowing that my efforts to eat better had paid off since the last time I went in. 

She took me to another room and I waited for the Dr.  He came in and told me congratulations as well.  He asked me how my symptoms were and thanks to this blog, I was able to tell him exactly when I started to have the head pressure and nausea.  He said that since it wasn't my blood pressure, then it was probably the hormones.  He prescribed me with Fioricet, which is a mixture of caffeine, Tylenol and Butalbital, which is a barbiturate.  I have not been eating any chocolate, or having any caffeine of any kind, so it kind of scared me that he wanted me to take it.  I asked him if it's safe and he said yes.  He said that many pregnant women get headaches, and they take this medication and are just fine.  I am still weary and will only take it if it gets absolutely unbearable.  

After my appointment, I kept working through my daily stuff, and my boss came back from a Dr. Appointment as well.  She sat us all down and told us that she is also pregnant, 12 weeks along.  I'll be 7 weeks on Thursday.  It was interesting to see that she had kept it a secret all along, even when I told her that I was pregnant.  She feels it's bad luck to tell people that you're pregnant until you have a heartbeat.  I felt sort of dumb, mostly because I had been so quick to tell her.  But, I had to realize that everyone is different, and I needed to respect that.  Ultimately, I'm glad to have someone else to go through this with.

Because my Dr. told me at my appointment that it was ok to eat chocolate in limited amounts, I had a few Hershey's peppermint bark kisses.  It really helped!  I also had a bit of chocolate on my pumpkin pie tonight and I don't have any head pressure or pain tonight.  It's a miracle!!  Who would have thunk a little caffeine would help!??

How far along:  6 Weeks, 4 days
How much time left:  33 weeks, 3 days
Top two symptoms:  Exhaustion and Nausea.  Thank goodness the head stuff went away.   :)

Favorite thing I ate today:  Pumpkin Pie!  My little brother and his girlfriend made some for their Friendsgiving yesterday, and so I got to eat the leftovers.  So good!

Mood:  Until I got off of work, my mood was cranky.  Even with the good news of the low blood pressure.  Once I got off of work, I felt like I could disconnect and enjoy time at home. 

Worried about:  How I will handle my new ability to have chocolate.  I will have to be really careful and stay away from it if possible.  I will eat some to keep my headaches at bay, however.  ;)

Excited for:  I am excited for our ultrasound on December 14.  I'm looking forward to hearing our baby's heartbeat and knowing that everything is going well.  For now, I have to rely on my symptoms and the fact that my period still hasn't started.  Phew!!

Every other day?

I seem to be trending every other day for my blog updates.  I know I committed to every day, but some days it is really hard to sit down and dedicate this time.  I know how important it is, so I will really try harder this week to blog every day.  I also know that there are going to be a lot of things going on leading up to me telling friends and family that I'm pregnant, so I want to keep this blog updated as much as I can.

Yesterday was Friday, and I had to work all day.  I went in around 8:30 AM and had a bunch of meetings until 1 or so.  My afternoon meetings were cancelled, which was nice.  I had some pretty annoying nausea and head pressure, so I was grateful to go home a bit early at 3:30 PM. 

On Friday night, I drove home and took a nice long nap until about 5:30.  Arthur came home at about 8 with Chinese food.  I wasn't incredibly hungry.  However, I did have this amazing head pressure that wouldn't go away.   I started feeling it about the same time I started feeling the nausea.  It feels like I've got my head saran wrapped to a piece of board and it's wrapped really tight around my head.  I can feel the pressure in my forehead and scalp just pushing up against my skull.  I got kind of scared last night that it was my high blood pressure, or something similar.  I tried to do some deep breathing to calm myself down, and that seemed to help.  I still have the problem today, it just isn't as bad.

Today was my lazy day.  Arthur had to go to work at 6:30 and be there at 7.  I woke up that early and tried to go back to sleep.  I couldn't until a little later in the morning after I'd eaten something.  I usually don't feel nausea right away when I wake up, which is weird considering that morning sickness is called morning sickness because of how early you usually feel it.  I don't start feeling it until I've been awake at least an hour.

I ate a lot today, but only because I felt extra nauseous.  I made myself French Toast, I had a salad with ranch dressing and green peppers.  I also had a peach and some french fries that I made in the oven.  All delicious things.  :)

Tonight we went to my nephew Adam's birthday party.  I took a bunch of really cute pictures.  I'll try to get them up in this entry a little later.  I would do it now, but the camera is far away and I'll need to upload the pictures. 

Tonight I spent some time at Arthur's mom's house and I was trying to help with some legal things that his brother is dealing with.  I really hope it will work out, and I believe it will if his brother gets more involved. 

How far along:  6 Weeks, 2 days
How much time left:  33 weeks, 5 days
Top two symptoms:  Head pressure and nausea.  The head pressure is the worst part. 

Favorite thing I ate today:  The French Toast I made myself for breakfast.  So delicious, and so easy!  Who would have thought I could cook French Toast?!

Mood:  Today I felt good, due to multiple distractions.  Being around people doesn't allow me to dwell on my symptoms.  I need to remember that.

Worried about:   This darn head pressure.  It's driving me crazy.  It never goes away except for when I'm lying down and about ready to sleep. 

Excited for:  Telling my family on Thursday and Friday.  They will all be so surprised!!  :)

I think I might be...

PREGNANT!  My goodness, I never thought I would really have too many symptoms... but I think on week 6, someone slipped me a pregnancy symptom pill.  I am definitely pregnant now.

I didn't get to blog yesterday because we had an activity in the evening with Brielle and Mike after work.  Arthur and I bought tickets to Disney on Ice back in August, and we wanted to take Brielle to it since she loves Princesses these days.  She was so good, and so happy the whole time.  We went to the Cheesecake Factory at City Creek.  Brielle ordered Mac and Cheese, and she loved it.  She was saying "yum, yum, yum!" over and over again.  It was so cute.

Today was a really rough day.  I really struggled to get through it.  It started out rough, even.  I had a terrible dream that I miscarried... and I was so sad when I woke up.  I know that it wasn't real, though... and that brought me peace and comfort to know that I was actually still pregnant.  Even though I wanted this for so long, and tried and wished and hoped... I didn't really think through the other stuff that comes with it.  I know that when I wasn't pregnant, I told myself that I would embrace any symptom or event that came with it.  I obviously underestimated my ability to stay sane about it.  :)  I just have to keep focusing on the positive and it will all turn out ok.

Today was also rough for other reasons... I had some insecurity issues, some worries about not being liked, and some worries about whether or not I was a good enough friend.  I always think that certain childhood feelings of being left out, or being taken for granted would go away as an adult, and they don't.  I just have to remember that I am not in control of everything, and I have to focus on what I am able to be a part of.

My biggest struggle today aside from not feeling good enough, was feeling physically gross.  I was exhausted, had a headache, and was dealing with a mental block that was almost too big to see past.  I realized that I needed to take a break and so on my lunch I went out and took a nap in my car.  It helped a lot.  I was able to finish up my day OK.

How far along:  6 Weeks TODAY!!
How much time left:  34 Weeks
Top two symptoms:  Today I will pick three because I had 3.  Mental block, exhaustion and nausea in that order.  I tried to snack on saltines and beef jerky throughout the day and that really helped my nausea.  The mental block thing has got to go, though.  I also fought to keep my eyes open most of the day. 

Favorite thing I ate today:  A doughnut from 711 and a slurpee.  I needed a sugar boost after my nap because otherwise, I wasn't going to make it through the day.

Mood:  Today I was G-R-U-M-P-Y.  With all capital letters.  It was awful.  I really tried to stay positive, but being so grumpy didn't allow me to focus on much of anything aside from the stuff that was making me mad.  I will make a conscious effort to be happy tomorrow, and not grumpy.  :)

Worried about:   Thanksgiving at my house.  It's going to be a lot of stress, and I hope that I make it through the day.  Arthur and his mom will probably cook the most part of the meal and I might be able to help with a few things... also, I'll probably spend the day cleaning.  I'm *so glad* I have Thanksgiving and the day after off. 

Excited for:  This trimester to pass.  I am really looking forward to December 14, which is when I will get to hear my baby's heartbeat the first time.  And right now, I'm excited for sleep.  ;)

2 days late and a meal short

I haven't blogged in 3 days.  I feel terrible.  Sunday and Monday were such busy days for me, I didn't have a chance to sit down and blog. 

I think I'll give the Campbells Soup version of my past two days so I can get caught up.  

On Sunday, I spent the day doing chores and preparing for an interview I had on Monday.  The job is for an Instructional Designer on the training team.

On Monday, I had the interview.  It went ok.  Afterwards, I didn't feel super excited about how it went, or super bad.  I feel like it went the way it should have gone, and that gave me peace.  If I make it through to the next round, I will have an interview next week. 

After work, Arthur and I went to Shane Co. to get my ring.  We dropped it off on Saturday to have it cleaned.  It was so sparkly!  I've never had it cleaned before, and I've had it for 4 1/2 years. 

Today has been good, not too busy.  I've appreciated the extra time to get some stuff done.  I only had a few meetings and a couple of interviews for people who were applying for our team. 

How far along:  5 Weeks, 5 days
How much time left:  34 Weeks, 2 days
Top two symptoms:  Nausea and Exhaustion.  Today my nausea has been over the top.  I have been getting hungry every 10 minutes or so after I eat.  And it isn't like how I normally feel, where I'm just munchy... it's like a pit in my stomach that makes me want to eat as many things as I can get my hands on.  I thought for sure that cravings and hunger were a myth, but they're not.  I kept telling myself that I was grateful to have these pregnancy symptoms because it means that everything is still ok down there.  :)  Exhaustion has been ridiculous today...  I had to take a nap at lunchtime in my car to feel normal the rest of the day.  :(

Favorite thing I ate today:  Apple slices that my friend Ashley gave me.  They saved the nauseous day!

Mood:  Today my mood was slightly annoyed and frustrated with how I was feeling.  I almost feel like my head is nailed to a piece of wood and I can feel this constant, dull pressure.  That led how I felt the whole day.  I tried to be really positive though, because I know that this is what I've been wanting for so long. 

Worried about:   I'm telling my family in a week that I'm pregnant.  Although I'm excited, I realized that it's coming very fast.  I need to prepare for it.  I also worry about the way I'm feeling physically.  I know that it's normal, but I wish that I had some reassurance from a doctor that I'm ok.  *sigh*

Excited for:  I'm also excited to tell my family.  I am looking forward to the happy tears and the questions about when, and how far along.  Not a lot of people know right now, and the more people that know, the better.  I like to talk about it, and it's helpful to get the additional hope from others.  I want to talk to others who have been through this first part who can reassure me that it's normal.  I'm not really talking about my symptoms with anyone who has felt this way, so I hope I'm normal.  But, I do appreciate more than anything the support that I have had so far.  Without the few that I have shared this with, I wouldn't have been able to get through it with such positivity.  :)