2 days late and a meal short

I haven't blogged in 3 days.  I feel terrible.  Sunday and Monday were such busy days for me, I didn't have a chance to sit down and blog. 

I think I'll give the Campbells Soup version of my past two days so I can get caught up.  

On Sunday, I spent the day doing chores and preparing for an interview I had on Monday.  The job is for an Instructional Designer on the training team.

On Monday, I had the interview.  It went ok.  Afterwards, I didn't feel super excited about how it went, or super bad.  I feel like it went the way it should have gone, and that gave me peace.  If I make it through to the next round, I will have an interview next week. 

After work, Arthur and I went to Shane Co. to get my ring.  We dropped it off on Saturday to have it cleaned.  It was so sparkly!  I've never had it cleaned before, and I've had it for 4 1/2 years. 

Today has been good, not too busy.  I've appreciated the extra time to get some stuff done.  I only had a few meetings and a couple of interviews for people who were applying for our team. 

How far along:  5 Weeks, 5 days
How much time left:  34 Weeks, 2 days
Top two symptoms:  Nausea and Exhaustion.  Today my nausea has been over the top.  I have been getting hungry every 10 minutes or so after I eat.  And it isn't like how I normally feel, where I'm just munchy... it's like a pit in my stomach that makes me want to eat as many things as I can get my hands on.  I thought for sure that cravings and hunger were a myth, but they're not.  I kept telling myself that I was grateful to have these pregnancy symptoms because it means that everything is still ok down there.  :)  Exhaustion has been ridiculous today...  I had to take a nap at lunchtime in my car to feel normal the rest of the day.  :(

Favorite thing I ate today:  Apple slices that my friend Ashley gave me.  They saved the nauseous day!

Mood:  Today my mood was slightly annoyed and frustrated with how I was feeling.  I almost feel like my head is nailed to a piece of wood and I can feel this constant, dull pressure.  That led how I felt the whole day.  I tried to be really positive though, because I know that this is what I've been wanting for so long. 

Worried about:   I'm telling my family in a week that I'm pregnant.  Although I'm excited, I realized that it's coming very fast.  I need to prepare for it.  I also worry about the way I'm feeling physically.  I know that it's normal, but I wish that I had some reassurance from a doctor that I'm ok.  *sigh*

Excited for:  I'm also excited to tell my family.  I am looking forward to the happy tears and the questions about when, and how far along.  Not a lot of people know right now, and the more people that know, the better.  I like to talk about it, and it's helpful to get the additional hope from others.  I want to talk to others who have been through this first part who can reassure me that it's normal.  I'm not really talking about my symptoms with anyone who has felt this way, so I hope I'm normal.  But, I do appreciate more than anything the support that I have had so far.  Without the few that I have shared this with, I wouldn't have been able to get through it with such positivity.  :)

Happy Halloween!

Today is a spooooooooooky day!  Well, not really.  Today is the first holiday I get to experience being pregnant.  I don't really have a fancy costume, Arthur and I are going to wear our bowling shirts from the eBay Bowl for Kids Sake event.  I'm really busy at work today and I hope I continue feeling good.

I have been battling a small cough for the past few days and this morning I can feel it moving down lower.  That's a good thing.  I really don't want to get sick, especially now that I'm working so hard to be more healthy.

Yesterday at work, I was really hungry.  I ate 4 small meals on to top of breakfast and dinner.  Arthur and I went to Walmart last night after work and we got a bunch of groceries.  I appreciated waking up this morning and having so many options for food.  I enjoyed an open-faced peanut butter and banana sandwich for breakfast, as well as an apple.  I'm trying to eat as much fruit as I eat in vegetables.  Thank goodness it's not my night to cook tonight.  :)

So far when I'm waking up in the morning, I'm not getting sick.  However, yesterday when I arrived at work, the smell of the breakroom made me really nauseous.  I always imagined morning sickness as waking up sick and having to run to the bathroom before even peeing.  That isn't the case.  I feel the same regardless, every morning.  I'm sure that will change in the coming weeks.

I read a blog of someone who I work with who is also pregnant, and she had a good idea to check for changes in how things are going, while documenting them.  I don't want to record my weight or anything like that, but I would like to record my symptoms and how I'm feeling every day if I can write every day.

How far along:  3 weeks, 6 days
How much time left:  36 weeks, 1 day
Top two symptoms:  Leg pain and bloating

Mood:  Generally happy most of the time, but when something get stuck in my mind that is upsetting, I can't let it go until I address the emotions.  It's like my "bottling up" emotional thing is speeding up from days to minutes.  I guess that means my patience is going away and my emotions are getting stronger.

Worried about:  I worry every day that my period will come and I will miscarry.  Even though I know I'm doing everything I can to keep this thing inside of me, I still stress that something will mess up and I will have to start all over.

Excited for:  Telling my family and friends we're pregnant.  The top two ideas are to get a picture frame with 4 squares in it and put pictures of all 3 grandkids and leave a square blank with "Coming July 11" or something like that.  I would put an ultrasound picture in square 4, but I won't be able to have one until I have my appointment on December 14.  We want to tell the families on Thanksgiving.  This will work for both sides because there are 3 grandkids on both sides, so our baby will be the 4th.  :)
The other idea is to get everyone together for a picture and have Arthur take it and he will say "Ok, everyone say CHEESE!"  and then say "Oh, it didn't take.  One more."  and then say "Ok, everyone say 'GENEVIEVE'S PREGNANT!'" and capture the reactions on film.  :)  Both fun ideas, but I like the 4 picture frame one better because it's not so obtrusive and surprising.

I'm not sure if I'll keep this "fill in the blank" stuff going, but I liked thinking through these things.  Then, there can be a bit more structure to my blog.  :)

Ok, time for work.  Bye for now, and Happy Halloween!

More Symptoms on Day 2!

Today is the day after I found out that I'm expecting.  Today, I am in a good mood, which is nice.  I am a little tired, but mostly I am crampy and my back hurts.  I was really hungry earlier in the day but now I'm less hungry.

I talked to two of my close friends today about my pregnancy.  The only reason I felt comfortable telling them is because I have been discussing the whole trying to conceive thing with them for like a year.  I need to be able to talk to someone aside from Arthur so I feel less insane when something comes up that I need to talk about.  So far the response has been very positive and excited for me.  I feel somewhat sad because they are both still trying, but I wish I could communicate to them that their time will come.  What doesn't change about their situations is that both of them are ready and willing to love a baby, whether it comes from inside of them or not.  That is what is constant and unchanging.  I tried to reaffirm that to them multiple times while we were discussing earlier in the year and hopefully they still understand that.

In other news, we're going to my family's house today to celebrate Halloween.  I'm excited to see the costumes of the kids.  I want to take a million pictures.

I am still not ready to tell anyone outside of the select few because I'm not ready to deal with telling everyone if the pregnancy doesn't work out.

Lastly, I took one more test this morning just to triple-check (literally) that I really am pregnant.  And, it came out positive.  So, 3 out of 3 must be good, right?  :)

Tomorrow will be my first day back to work knowing that I'm definitely pregnant.  We'll see how I do...  More again tomorrow.