This morning, Arthur needed to get up to go to work by 7:30 AM. It snowed all night and we have at least 5 inches outside. I woke up at 7:10 and realized that his alarm didn't go off an hour earlier like it was supposed to since it's a Saturday and it's just set for weekdays. Because of the snow and because of his bald tires, he decided not to go in. We both went back to sleep. I am cursed with this problem of not being able to go back to sleep once I'm up... and so I was skeptical that I'd be able to do it.
I heard a loud chirp sound as I was going back to sleep and realized it was the fire detector with a low battery. I told Arthur I wasn't going to be able to sleep until he fixed it. He got up and fixed 3 different detectors that were beeping. Bless his tired heart. He has been achy too, because he spent his whole day off moving his cousin from her apartment to her house. He actually packed up and moved everything for her, and had a little bit of help, but did most of it himself. Because it's family, he's obviously not going to ask for any money.
So he had to work all day on his lieu day so he could work all day today. He's still hurting this morning and so I felt bad asking him to climb to the ceiling to get the smoke alarms... but they drive me nuts when they're going off.
We were both able to drift off to sleep after the fire alarms were fixed. I was dreaming that Arthur was buying all of this weird home decor, like wall paintings, and wallpaper, and paint. In my dream, he completely remodeled the kitchen with a pepper/tomato theme. I kept asking him why and he just kept giving me dumb answers like "You shouldn't be asking that. I can remodel if I want. It's my house too." I couldn't believe it, because I would never consider doing something that drastic with talking to him first.
The next part of my dream I kept noticing all of these things that I didn't recognize... receipts, other random purchases that I didn't know about. In my dream, he was sitting on a couch cutting up something paper, and I noticed he had an iPad Mini on his lap. I asked him if he bought that. He said yes. I also noticed an iPad 3. I asked him if it was his. He said yes. So he had purchased all of these expensive things without even telling me. We had recently cashed in my stock and so I couldn't understand why he'd buy these things and not tell me about it, especially since it came from my stocks.
I got so angry in my dream, I yelled at him, and I even swore at him. I think my anger came from somewhere completely unrelated to electronics and home remodeling. I think that I was frustrated because he wasn't communicating with me. And I really can't handle these kinds of things at all. I know my body was processing through some unknown stress, but it was awful to feel so angry at him. He has gotten really good at talking to me about big purchases and I have gotten really good about letting some little things go. It's the balance that comes with marriage.
I think I worry that this could affect me later on when I have a child... when we really do need the money and must communicate about things like this. He obviously is not going to do anything like this, but it was still scary. The feelings were real and so I know that I needed to deal with them.
Ultimately, I have to look at the dream in a positive way. My cousin Ashley once told me that we have bad dreams so we can appreciate how good things actually are. When I compare how I felt in that dream to how I feel normally, there is no comparison. I don't deal with those emotions in real life because he has gotten better at communicating with me.
I have more to blog about, so I'll do that later on, but I just needed to get this off my chest.
All is well, I'm awake and I've escaped my dream. Maybe I can have a nap later today. :)
I heard a loud chirp sound as I was going back to sleep and realized it was the fire detector with a low battery. I told Arthur I wasn't going to be able to sleep until he fixed it. He got up and fixed 3 different detectors that were beeping. Bless his tired heart. He has been achy too, because he spent his whole day off moving his cousin from her apartment to her house. He actually packed up and moved everything for her, and had a little bit of help, but did most of it himself. Because it's family, he's obviously not going to ask for any money.
So he had to work all day on his lieu day so he could work all day today. He's still hurting this morning and so I felt bad asking him to climb to the ceiling to get the smoke alarms... but they drive me nuts when they're going off.
We were both able to drift off to sleep after the fire alarms were fixed. I was dreaming that Arthur was buying all of this weird home decor, like wall paintings, and wallpaper, and paint. In my dream, he completely remodeled the kitchen with a pepper/tomato theme. I kept asking him why and he just kept giving me dumb answers like "You shouldn't be asking that. I can remodel if I want. It's my house too." I couldn't believe it, because I would never consider doing something that drastic with talking to him first.
The next part of my dream I kept noticing all of these things that I didn't recognize... receipts, other random purchases that I didn't know about. In my dream, he was sitting on a couch cutting up something paper, and I noticed he had an iPad Mini on his lap. I asked him if he bought that. He said yes. I also noticed an iPad 3. I asked him if it was his. He said yes. So he had purchased all of these expensive things without even telling me. We had recently cashed in my stock and so I couldn't understand why he'd buy these things and not tell me about it, especially since it came from my stocks.
I got so angry in my dream, I yelled at him, and I even swore at him. I think my anger came from somewhere completely unrelated to electronics and home remodeling. I think that I was frustrated because he wasn't communicating with me. And I really can't handle these kinds of things at all. I know my body was processing through some unknown stress, but it was awful to feel so angry at him. He has gotten really good at talking to me about big purchases and I have gotten really good about letting some little things go. It's the balance that comes with marriage.
I think I worry that this could affect me later on when I have a child... when we really do need the money and must communicate about things like this. He obviously is not going to do anything like this, but it was still scary. The feelings were real and so I know that I needed to deal with them.
Ultimately, I have to look at the dream in a positive way. My cousin Ashley once told me that we have bad dreams so we can appreciate how good things actually are. When I compare how I felt in that dream to how I feel normally, there is no comparison. I don't deal with those emotions in real life because he has gotten better at communicating with me.
I have more to blog about, so I'll do that later on, but I just needed to get this off my chest.
All is well, I'm awake and I've escaped my dream. Maybe I can have a nap later today. :)
